“bitches don't just bark, they bite”

i've searched high and low.
i tried my very best.
and finally :) i've found it.
i hope you love it.
it maybe not be much but i hope that it will put a smile on your face.

on your special day, i wanna put aside all the negativity.
i wanna put aside all of your sorrows. lets just enjoy the day ok.
i still do love you. i do.


with love,
nydiah.

i'm exhausted. i feel like i've lost my life.
i dont understand myself either. why am i still hoping.
Hoping for something to magically happen.
i still pray. Pray for your love, for your happiness.

It might be extremely hard. my mind is saying enough, my heart couldnt take it.
but my heart says otherwise.
I dont wish to trouble anyone anymore.
I dont wish to be a burden.

i'm so low on the ground right now, barely standing up.
i'm losing.
i wish to see you but i cant face you.

i wish it doesnt have to hurt like this.

ps: i dont wish to have any gossips with someone at work.
i was told afew times abt him. but please colleagues
there is still someone in my heart. someone who is impossible to forget.
impossible to hate.

it was haziq's offday yesterday and eventhough we only met for dinner, we had a blast.
its always like this.. the time we get to spend with each other is always so short.
the best part is we really made full use of that limited time.

we went to have dinner and whatever we ordered were all spicy.
I was and still having a flu so it just got worse. It was super delicious i tell you, maybe becos we both were extremely hungry :)
the lala.. the cockles... the stingray.. And the milo... Wuishhh.









I looked like i didnt enjoy my dinner at all. Which is not true! The other pictures of me looked funny.
After dinner, we went to love's place to help him out with something. We found quite alot of things.
And i realised, i loveeee writing him letters <3
We saw his brother's baby picture and afew old coins. Speaking of coins!

Haziq: i really want to collect coins.
Nydiah: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Haziq: i'm serious :D
Nydiah: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

The thought of him being a coin collector is kinda of funny.
But it might be interesting too. Who knows! Maybe he can find one of the rare kinds.
It was sweet of him to send me off. Loveeee the moments...

Uuuu! Met up with shasha the day before. And she really really deserves ice cream.
We thought that the ice cream a particular shop is selling might cost abit expensive,
but to our surprise, it wasnt at all. It was totally yummy.





I should be sleeping by now, have to wake up early tmr.
I know this sounds crazy, but i really crave for toasted bread.
The thunder and lightnings seriously need to tone it down abit. If not, i wont be sleeping tonight.

Eventhough its just a short while, it was worth it cos i atleast get to see my boyfran :)
We were finding kakddee's bday present and cake and i suggested causeway point.
The moment we reached there, we feel like we were in a completely different mall.
Like 90% of the shops are still not open and its soooo suffocating due to the small space.
We ended up taking the cab to jurong point instead, which cost us like 14 bucks!

We went to find kakddee a pair of running shoes since mum already got her a treadmill.
While i was waiting for someone to assist me, haziq handed me the perfect shoe for sis.
After that, as usual, i'm kinda of the "Icing Room" fan, so we decorated the cake as quickly as possible and to my amazement,
it's kind of not bad actually :) i've done worst!

Somebody actually stuffed the colored whipping cream in his mouth after we're done decorating :) hahahaha.
Dinner after that then off to celebrate :))))







I finally got to meet up with my very bestfran on sunday! I swear she made me feel alotttt better :)
I did enjoy myself laughing. Once both of us meet up, there will be nothing but nonsense!
We went to vivo to chill one corner :) i want to meet up with her again....











It was memorable :)))
Somebody will be waking me up later, sooo i need to get my sleep now!
Goodnight world.

This few years have been tough for us. We fought in different kinds of ways.
And trust me, there is no such things as a perfect relationship. Each and every one of them has their issues.
And we clearly have ours. Fights are healthy and it makes us stronger. Its a matter of how much more we can tolerate each other.

After listening to a brokenhearted girl's pain, it made me realised that there's always a reason for everything.
Maybe the reason why he's allllwaaayyysss here even when i left is becos he might be that one for me.
He didnt go anywhere but stayed by my side.
That brokenhearted girl said to treasure the moments cos that moments will be the once you'll miss the most.
What if you disappear after i gave up. What will i do? How will i live my life. will i meet new people?
Will i find someone who will treat me like you do? Will i end up on the streets crazy???? :) ok, over react.

A few years we suffered but those few years i treasure the most. Im glad to have you in life my life.
You are no longer part of my life, you are part of me. I breathe you, i feel you and my heart beats for you.

I love you and i love us too much. Nydiahaziq <3



i have stopped writing. And since i will be busy with my phone, i may be blogging instead.
(eventhough no one blogs nowadays) its ok, i'm not that popular anyway :)
I have been busy with mostly myself lately and ofcourse, haziq.
We're doing fine now and i think... personally, he's ten times better than the other guys i've met.
Not to make him kembang or something but its true :)
he's been the sweetest boyfran anyone could ever ask for.

we've gone through some rough patches, but we pulled through.
We both know that there will be more, and i hope this time, we wont ever give up on each other.
I love him you know.....

I know that its kinda late to actually post this, but i couldnt help it.
i'll go to bed after i'm done blogging. Its so much different using the lappy and the phone.
Using the phone is abit troublesome but its the most convenient.

Sis bday is coming up and for the first time, my plan didnt actually work.
Everyone is not cooperating with me and maybe i'll just get her a present instead.
Haziq is now so busy with work that its hard to spend time with him.
We'll find ways to actually see each other even if its only for awhile.
i dont want to comment anything abt something i dislike but we talked it through and let's just see what happens.

We used to hang out till late nights and just enjoy each other's company.
And after afew years, we did actually get to re-live the old moments.
I miss us and im glad to still have us :)





















If you were to ask me whether i'll regret my decision? I would say no. I am happy now and i'm happy with him.
nydiahaziq ~


Thank you love for helping me out with the phone and also for dinner :)

Super addicted to some of the games but not as addicted as him.
Was super trying hard to be the top 5-10 for scramble!
I think he is still playing that game at this hour :))

Lucky he's there to help me out with some complicating stuff.
Kalau tak, i'll be one super blur peacock!!!
Should get some sleep now. Goodnight world.