I LIKE FOSTER
i don't usually say this but i'm pretty lucky.
i have the perfect mom and the perfect sisters :)

i don't ask for much, i'll probably earn it myself.
i can say that i'm extremely annoying
and a complete drama queen.

i LOVE new things but will get bored of it easily.

and i believe that EVERY girl is beautiful
everyone of you ladies

cos guys can't live without us :)

Nydiah Foster

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as you guys know, I'm no more with rahmat.. but the thing is, he wants to be around me all the time. he calls me like 5-6 times a day and the topic today is about * he surprised me by waiting for me outside school.

i was as usual walking with the rest towards the station. then, dorothy called, she didnt get through me, so, she called dayah. dayah told me that rahmat was behind me. I was so shocked that my mind suddenly went blank. like totally blank.

rahmat expected me to feel happy and excited to see him. instead, we were fighting throughout our journey to the station.

they left and i was told that they were watching us fight from the MRT station. I know by his facial expression that he's very dissappointed. but i don't care. I told him to give me a month to settle down. but he still doesn't understand by what I've said. I told him:"yes, you can call me sometimes".. i didn't mean everytime. I told him:"yes, we can meet sometimes too".. i didn't mean like this.

to rahmat:
I know you really want to change for the better. but this is all wrong. you want to mingle around me every minute, how can i breathe? we agreed on this. we settle down without each other for a month. but still i see no difference. I can see you changed. but you're still the rahmat i know. forcing me to confirm everything just to make you happy. you didn't think how would i feel? I really don't want to play with your heart. but it's like i'm forced to. I really don't want to..I want you to change because of you, not me. and it really hurts when you said that you're crazy and desperate about me.It made me feel creepy actually.. and the "let your mother talk to me" thing is just not working out for me . sorry..

It's just that I'm not the nice nydiah you've known. I grew up.