“bitches don't just bark, they bite”
wait
Friday, March 06, 2009 || 2:29 PM
i know that im not supposed to write down everything about me in this blog.
cos i dont want people to have a bad impression of me.
but now,since you're not dropping by no more. so here goes.
i dont know what's wrong with us nowadays. we're always fighting.
im not just blaming you. im blaming myself too.
this relationship is about us, not just you or just me.
we tend to hurt each other more.
and i feel like we're drifting away.
i dont want that. i love you, you see. i dont want us to be like this.
i dont want to wake up in the morning mad at you. and i really dont want to listen you scolding me.
i know it's my fault cos i make every little thing such a big matter.
i know you're sick and tired of fighting like this.
and i know you're sick and tired of tears.
i can see that.
im lacking i know. i tried to be the best.
i know im no fun.
i regret telling you about my dream.
cos i cried like a cry baby infront of you.
i didnt feel any better at all.
it's as if you dont care about my feelings now.
if everything is my fault,
- the way you were sarcastic just now.
- the way you asked me "what's wrong" with that angry manner.
- the way you weren't listening yesterday.
then, i would like to apologise.
im sorry for always blaming you.
im sorry for embarrasing you in public with my clumsiness and my stupidity.
im sorry for always making you mad at me.
im sorry for always crying.
im sorry for misbehaving.
im sorry for everything.
im sorry baby.
you have never been sarcastic with me.
you always look at me when im talking to you. (like there's no other people around, just me)
listen,
i love you for you. im not asking you to change. never.
and dont think that way.
if you still choose to keep everything to yourself,
then i'll wait for the moment for you to open up to me.
and i really hope, it's not at last moment.
i just love you more than anything.
please god, im waiting for his text msg.
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
phrase for today: i always dream of you. but this time, please dont let this dream come true :'(
to dayah: im sorry for being such a bad fran.
to shasha/nana: im sorry for being your pathetic cousin who breaks promises.
to my sisters: im sorry for being a bad sister.
to my mum: im sorry for being a bad daughter.
to my love: sorry for not being perfect. im sorry for writing down everything here. im sorry for everything. i admit, it's my fault.
im sorry everyone................ i love you all.
after this, ill keep every detail to myself.
