i love drama.

candles :)

2011-07-24T14:26:00.000+08:00

i've searched high and low.
i tried my very best.
and finally :) i've found it.
i hope you love it.
it maybe not be much but i hope that it will put a smile on your face.

on your special day, i wanna put aside all the negativity.
i wanna put aside all of your sorrows. lets just enjoy the day ok.
i still do love you. i do.

with love,
nydiah.

seasons are changing and waves are crashing.

2011-07-03T13:07:00.007+08:00

i'm exhausted. i feel like i've lost my life.
i dont understand myself either. why am i still hoping.
Hoping for something to magically happen.
i still pray. Pray for your love, for your happiness.

It might be extremely hard. my mind is saying enough, my heart couldnt take it.
but my heart says otherwise.
I dont wish to trouble anyone anymore.
I dont wish to be a burden.

i'm so low on the ground right now, barely standing up.
i'm losing.
i wish to see you but i cant face you.

i wish it doesnt have to hurt like this.

ps: i dont wish to have any gossips with someone at work.
i was told afew times abt him. but please colleagues
there is still someone in my heart. someone who is impossible to forget.
impossible to hate.

jogging while eating maggie mee.

2011-05-26T02:01:00.004+08:00

it was haziq's offday yesterday and eventhough we only met for dinner, we had a blast.
its always like this.. the time we get to spend with each other is always so short.
the best part is we really made full use of that limited time.

we went to have dinner and whatever we ordered were all spicy.
I was and still having a flu so it just got worse. It was super delicious i tell you, maybe becos we both were extremely hungry :)
the lala.. the cockles... the stingray.. And the milo... Wuishhh.

I looked like i didnt enjoy my dinner at all. Which is not true! The other pictures of me looked funny.
After dinner, we went to love's place to help him out with something. We found quite alot of things.
And i realised, i loveeee writing him letters <3
We saw his brother's baby picture and afew old coins. Speaking of coins!

Haziq: i really want to collect coins.
Nydiah: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Haziq: i'm serious :D
Nydiah: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

The thought of him being a coin collector is kinda of funny.
But it might be interesting too. Who knows! Maybe he can find one of the rare kinds.
It was sweet of him to send me off. Loveeee the moments...

Uuuu! Met up with shasha the day before. And she really really deserves ice cream.
We thought that the ice cream a particular shop is selling might cost abit expensive,
but to our surprise, it wasnt at all. It was totally yummy.

I should be sleeping by now, have to wake up early tmr.
I know this sounds crazy, but i really crave for toasted bread.
The thunder and lightnings seriously need to tone it down abit. If not, i wont be sleeping tonight.

half a day, with love.

2011-05-24T00:59:00.003+08:00

Eventhough its just a short while, it was worth it cos i atleast get to see my boyfran :)
We were finding kakddee's bday present and cake and i suggested causeway point.
The moment we reached there, we feel like we were in a completely different mall.
Like 90% of the shops are still not open and its soooo suffocating due to the small space.
We ended up taking the cab to jurong point instead, which cost us like 14 bucks!

We went to find kakddee a pair of running shoes since mum already got her a treadmill.
While i was waiting for someone to assist me, haziq handed me the perfect shoe for sis.
After that, as usual, i'm kinda of the "Icing Room" fan, so we decorated the cake as quickly as possible and to my amazement,
it's kind of not bad actually :) i've done worst!

Somebody actually stuffed the colored whipping cream in his mouth after we're done decorating :) hahahaha.
Dinner after that then off to celebrate :))))

I finally got to meet up with my very bestfran on sunday! I swear she made me feel alotttt better :)
I did enjoy myself laughing. Once both of us meet up, there will be nothing but nonsense!
We went to vivo to chill one corner :) i want to meet up with her again....

It was memorable :)))
Somebody will be waking me up later, sooo i need to get my sleep now!
Goodnight world.

The title of my book will be "Life with superman"

2011-05-21T01:12:00.006+08:00

This few years have been tough for us. We fought in different kinds of ways.
And trust me, there is no such things as a perfect relationship. Each and every one of them has their issues.
And we clearly have ours. Fights are healthy and it makes us stronger. Its a matter of how much more we can tolerate each other.

After listening to a brokenhearted girl's pain, it made me realised that there's always a reason for everything.
Maybe the reason why he's allllwaaayyysss here even when i left is becos he might be that one for me.
He didnt go anywhere but stayed by my side.
That brokenhearted girl said to treasure the moments cos that moments will be the once you'll miss the most.
What if you disappear after i gave up. What will i do? How will i live my life. will i meet new people?
Will i find someone who will treat me like you do? Will i end up on the streets crazy???? :) ok, over react.

A few years we suffered but those few years i treasure the most. Im glad to have you in life my life.
You are no longer part of my life, you are part of me. I breathe you, i feel you and my heart beats for you.

I love you and i love us too much. Nydiahaziq <3

lucky:)

2011-05-20T04:05:00.004+08:00

i have stopped writing. And since i will be busy with my phone, i may be blogging instead.
(eventhough no one blogs nowadays) its ok, i'm not that popular anyway :)
I have been busy with mostly myself lately and ofcourse, haziq.
We're doing fine now and i think... personally, he's ten times better than the other guys i've met.
Not to make him kembang or something but its true :)
he's been the sweetest boyfran anyone could ever ask for.

we've gone through some rough patches, but we pulled through.
We both know that there will be more, and i hope this time, we wont ever give up on each other.
I love him you know.....

I know that its kinda late to actually post this, but i couldnt help it.
i'll go to bed after i'm done blogging. Its so much different using the lappy and the phone.
Using the phone is abit troublesome but its the most convenient.

Sis bday is coming up and for the first time, my plan didnt actually work.
Everyone is not cooperating with me and maybe i'll just get her a present instead.
Haziq is now so busy with work that its hard to spend time with him.
We'll find ways to actually see each other even if its only for awhile.
i dont want to comment anything abt something i dislike but we talked it through and let's just see what happens.

We used to hang out till late nights and just enjoy each other's company.
And after afew years, we did actually get to re-live the old moments.
I miss us and im glad to still have us :)

If you were to ask me whether i'll regret my decision? I would say no. I am happy now and i'm happy with him.
nydiahaziq ~

2011-03-11T02:48:00.002+08:00

Thank you love for helping me out with the phone and also for dinner :)

Super addicted to some of the games but not as addicted as him.
Was super trying hard to be the top 5-10 for scramble!
I think he is still playing that game at this hour :))

Lucky he's there to help me out with some complicating stuff.
Kalau tak, i'll be one super blur peacock!!!
Should get some sleep now. Goodnight world.

trust issues.

2011-02-27T11:27:00.006+08:00

i really dont know how to put this into words.
MIA-ing helps sometimes. not by cooling down or something.
but by thinking. i still feel the pain and i am furious.
but you dont have the right to decide for me.
i personally had enough of this.
i dont know what i did, to make you not trust me.
but i can feel that there's no trust at all.
i dont think i am holding on anymore.
i tried gaining your trust back and i tried to hold on.
but you are the one who made me feel like there's no point in trying at all.
you always thought that i dont know how to take care of myself.
now i am going to prove to everyone that i am capable to do that.
i will try to move on.

i dont want to spend the rest of my life with someone who orders me around.
who prevents me from doing what i want to do.
and who doesnt put alittle trust on me.
you never loved me at all. cos in love, there's trust.

the worst thing of all, i loved you for who you are, who you want to be
and who you will be. i was never in your way to do anything you wanted to do.
i was there all along, behind you.

i Will miss you terribly.
i will miss the times we had badly.
but i think it's time for you to be a Bigboy now.
and i think its time for us to be apart.
my love for you will never change but i dont see any reason to hold on anymore.
i tried.
please do me a favour, dont come and see me cos it will make me much more weaker.

until we meet again someday. with so much love.

are we humans

2011-02-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

dear anjali is still very weak and she needs alot of rest. I feel so hopeless seeing her like that but i will try as much as i could to help. she is a really old cat and the vet even said that she might live only for afew months. i somehow believe that she will get better. i pray every single day for her and i'll nvr stop trying.

i am sorry if i spoilt everything by starting the topic but i just want you to know how i feel. you should know that it is incredibly hard for me but i am trying. i dont want to waste what we had and have. i tried to put it aside but sometimes i just cant. the only thing you should know right now is that i am not giving up on us.
not now. Ily.

i killed my phone

2011-02-19T14:38:00.000+08:00

my phone suddenly switched off by itself and i couldnt switch it on back. was super pissed abt it.

i know that you will be dropping by sooner or later so please please text me up cos i only have your other number. I saved your new one in my stupid phone. ok? i'm hoping he would dropby anytime soon.

frans.

2011-02-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

today is the day where i could be the meanest bitch ever found here in singapore. i am super super grumpy and the slightest things could make me mad.. Like looking at a horrible curtain from any random homes. it is that bad and nobody should mess with me right now. seriously. i had the worst journey home which just made it much more worst.

was hoping to see dear anjali tmr to see her condition and i hope she is really well taken care of.

like my usual post, i cant wait for sunday to work with the bitches :) i miss them so much.
thank you for the wheel of fortune and the millionaire game. it really did cheer me up :)
goodnight full moon.

ego

2011-02-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

yesterday was abit hectic for me. got alittle annoyed with a customer and had a little fight with the chef. fyi, i wasnt mad abt the thing we are arguing abt, i'm just frustrated that he's not teaching me the right thing and after that, telling me what i did was wrong. Not only that, he kept on telling me how am i going to become a trainer if i dont know anything. I maybe becoming a trainer but trainers learn too. You should be the one teaching me, not saying these kind of things.

went to fetch dear anjali from the vet. she is still very weak but she is slightly better. i pray for your recovery love. will be sending her back to the vet for checkup.

I am extremely tired but like always, i cant sleep. not yet.. i just hope later would be a better day for me. maybe its time to put my froggie eye mask on and get my sleep. Ohya! I just realised that the only place i could update my blog using my hp is when i'm in bed! i'll just text haziq up for abit to wish him goodnight. will update later :) goodnight moon.

talking to the moon

2011-02-17T01:40:00.000+08:00

ok, i should be sleeping by now. i am tired but i missing you. its been really tough these past few days but i know that we can pull through. its harder for me to forget everything but i will try.

picking dear anjali up later from the vet during my break from work. i will try to do what i can to help. she is a really old cat, but i hope for the best for her. so looking forward for this sunday :) serious! since sunday is still a long way to go, i cant wait to see shufei and isaac later. i better be sleeping now. just need to grab my froggie eye mask! Cant sleep with it now. goodnight moon.

somewhere over the rainbow.

2010-12-28T12:03:00.002+08:00

ok i had to steal haidar's pictures :) sorry. hahahaha.
it was supposed to be the thy bitches nye gathering. but it was cancelled.
dibee and haidar were at town to watch movie.
and me and haziq were on our way to dinner. thought of meeting up with them after that
instead, we bumped into then.

went on our ways first and met up with then later in the evening.
:)

We were wearing the same shirt we bought together! and it was a coincidence.

dibee kept on pestering us to try out the mudpie @ coffee club:)
AND haziq needs a haircut ok. i teman you.

MRS OBEY. Hahahahaha!

i swear i was super bloated after all that eating.
dinner with haziq and we went to ben and jerry's for ice-cream.
after that we had mudpie. how to maintain my weight??!?!??!?!?!

atleast i had a full stomach when i reached home.

big girls don't cry

2010-11-28T00:11:00.005+08:00

hey :)
I've got to see hope in mum's eyes today.
I got to see faith too. i dont get that everyday.
I need to do this. i want to take care of my mum now.
I want her to depend on me.

please please, let me do this for mum.
I'll try and I'll keep trying ok.

hey, i need your full support on this ok.
cos yours is most important to me. i mean this.
no matter whatever i get, no matter how things/time will change,
you will still be here with me. cos only i know how much i love you.
have faith in me.
No.2

nydiah, go and sleep please.
nanti lamabt lagik, mcm biase. -_____-
naik muak kau ehhhh.

i look around my room and everything reminds me of you.

2010-11-23T12:27:00.003+08:00

i love you too love. so so so so much.

and i'll obviously miss you even without you asking me to.

i woke up with the smell of your jacket :)

i'll only return it when your smell fades ok.

i finally got to rest today.

work was fun, i just wish lea was there too :(

confirm, they will work in peace today.

hahahaha. no one will sing loudly with her awfullll voice!

im always singing with lea who has a really nice voice.

so when we sing together, i feel like my voice also nice.

but in reality, totally suck lahh. atleast i sedar you know.

after work,

nydiah: Bye!

trainee: Hey Nadia, Your name is Nadia right??

nydiah: Nydiah, ok bye! (tak sabar sabar nak balek)

trainee: hey hey, someone was searching for you. a guy.

nydiah: a guy?

traineee: Ya, he's this tall (describing his height), wear specs.

2 descriptions and i know who already.

:) thank you, for picking me up from work. muacks.

i'm calling your name.

2010-11-20T00:37:00.003+08:00

hey you.
was so busy with facebook till i forgot to update.
I will try to update as much as possible ok.
these days was hell for me but seriously, i deserve it.
maybe cos i asked for it. trust me, its not as easy as it looks.
pray for us to be stronger to hold on to each other ok.

I realised that I've been writing more often and i always feel atleast,
not much but abittt better. Atleast i got to pen down all my thoughts and feelings
on faith. She's been there for me all along. That's becos i own her lahh.
Faith = Diary.

Was keeping Alice away and i saw our love book.
I flipped it open and all the memories came back.
From our skate scooter session to our ice-cream sticks.
i came across this too.

"Love is like a candle, that flickers oh so bright
Love is a deep longing, in the middle of the night
Love is a sunrise, brightening a new day
Love is an adventure, that takes your breath away

Love is when you say, little things that mean so much
Love is when you shiver, at a gentle loving touch
Love is a completeness, that fills you through and through
Love is simply saying, my uchuk i love you. "

.....

i better be going to bed now, i have work later.
can't wait to meet up with the cousins.

ohya, i will wear this for you ok.

and i'll find a new pair of sandals to match with it.
goodnight world.

like a G6.

2010-11-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

Woke up with the smell of mummy's cooking:)
the sun is shining brightly and made the house looked cheerful and happy.
my sisters were talking about everything and anything.
and i will be on the lappy facebook-ing.
the kitties will be chasing each other all around the house.
and mummy will be screaming at bear-bear for misbehaving :))
haha. i love one of these moments.

planning to meet up with thy bitches tonight.
since bday girl nak club kann :))
afew days back, i'm like wondering what to wear and until now,
i still cant figure it out yet. pfft.
i really hope jadi cos i miss them so much, every single human being.
hahaha.

my bday was a blast. ok, i have a rough start but it ended up good.
@ around 7-8am, my sisters came in the room, while i was sleeping
singing a bday song with a bday cake in the their hands. aww.... i was touched.
haziq came to pick me up and ofcourse, presents :)
then we took a little ride on the cable car to sentosa.
i swear singapore is really beautiful from up there.

then we had a little fun at the Luge and the Skyride.
really fun i tell you. hahahaha.
we took the cable car back to Harbourfront but this time, the moon was up.
supper amazed. you guys should really try.

at the point of moment i was super hungry, we did walked around @ vivo.
but i couldnt concentrate on anything than hearing me stomach Growling.
so he dragged me to newton to eat.
i was super surprised to see my family there too.
i didnt expect more presents :)
and a lovely balloon (which uchuk burst right before we reach home)
hahahaha.
thank you uchuk, for all the effort you put to make my bday a memorable one :))
and thank you family for being there at my special day.

now, please please malam ni jadi. puhhlease.

spooktacular

2010-11-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

haziq's brother got us tickets to the sentosa's spooktacular Halloween.
and the moment i reached there, i was the victim of this like baju kurung hantu.
all i did was shout, shout and shout.
i AM a scaredy cat and i can really get on your nerves with my cowardness.
but atleast i make you guys laugh right??
all that shouting made me super tired at the end of the night.
i did have fun :)) we had supper after that.
(i was afraid to eat cos if we eat after 10pm, there are possibilities that i can gain weight super fast and i dont want that.)

its super sweet for haziq's brother to make a super special video for his girlfran.
trust me, it could make you cry. i did want to tear up abit. but too paiseyy.
i want to thank all the strangers queuing for the bday song eventhough you guys have no idea who i am. and thank you guys for the night. i really do appreciate it.

wish me good luck ok. for my future :)
i'm doing this for me.

i dreamt of..

2010-10-29T12:19:00.003+08:00

good afternoon :)
my prangai very last minute one cos i just woke up from sleep.
blom mandi blom ape dah blogging.
had a terrible flu last night and i had to take my pills.
and becos of that pill, i woke up late. iyer, salah kan pill eh nydiah.

as you know, my semangat is like 2 minutes only ok
soon i'll stop blogging cos i'm tired of all the typing.
hahaha. so please layan my semangat 2 minutes ok :)

i dreamt of hari raye last night and i seriously miss it.
the salam salaman, the gossiping, the playing games.
the going kedai to you know do what. the ayam gorengs, the kuih muih.
the turning up the TV volume sampai everybody struggles to talk to each other. etc.

cepat lahh hari raye haji, atleast we can get to gather around as a whole family.
i miss these bitches :)

and these kiddies.

haishh. cepat lah hari raye haji. boleh jumpe nenek :)

i'm moving my ass now.
nak mandi, then i have chores to do.
yup, been staying at home helping mummy out.
the house is screaming for help, since everybody is busy with work.
so i took these days off taking care of it ok.
i really really miss thy bitches.please please lets meet up soon ok??

back to basics

2010-10-28T21:48:00.003+08:00

heyyyyyyy..... it's been so long.
well, maybe cos i'm too free to to do anything right now.
that's why i'm blogging lahh.
basically everything is messed up.
i've not been behaving lately.
i can't help it. i couldn't stop being mean.

as you can see i've changed my blog skin cos it looked messy and dirty.
i wont tell you everything that's been going on with my life.
cos all of you will get bored lahh kan.
Hahahaha!

finally got to do what i always wanted with dayah.
eventhough dbl o sucked. we went all out from the beginning to the end.
we means me and dayah only.
as usual lah, nydiah kau kan lembik gile. so minom sikit je, ABIS.

hahahaha. i miss them :) jumpe lagik ok.
haziq finally got what he wanted and he's always with it 24hrs.
and i'm living life like no one's business like that.
:) that's it ok. i will sooner or later blog again.

i miss you.

so long love.

2010-08-29T15:31:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry but I'm letting you go.
I love you so much and we've been together for many years.
but i feel like I'm not appreciating you. i feel like i'm leaving you behind.
we had great great memories with each other
and i'm sure that many people will be pleased to see me and you apart.

maybe it is time.
dont you ever think for a second that i'm starting to hate you.
I'm not. I didnt have the heart to actually delete you.
so i've decided to let you wait... wait for my arrival.

i love you blog. i really do.
so long irock-yoursock.blogspot.com

flying kite

2010-08-23T17:07:00.003+08:00

after dinner, i went to watch movie at haziq's place.
didnt plan to stay up late.
after the 2nd movie abis je, member dah lembik..
hahah. i couldnt control my eyes anymore.

was planning to hail the cab home but instead,
we got carried away by talking.
sooooo...... we walked all the way from his place to my place.
the good thing is that i get to save like 7 bucks!
it was super fun actually :)) we were like playing games along the road.
we were laughing, arguing and talking, and talking....

:) it's nice you know. to actually open up once in a while.

-_____________________________________-" my blog so borin already.
ok. i'm thinking whether to delete my blog or not. hmm.

fnc better than manhattan.

2010-08-15T14:46:00.003+08:00

haziq and i have been talking about our plans to have dinner at manhattan fish market.
and randomly i called to make reservations last night.
seriously, i couldnt understand a word the guy on the other line said and i was like
"as long as you put my name in the waiting list, i'm ok!"
finished work and rushed home to get ready.

we were at plaza singapura around 7pm and by the time we reached to the restaurant,
it was full house! and the queue was like woah!~
i then quickly told the waitress that i'm already in the waiting list
after giving her a little time to check, she told me that my name wasnt listed.
i swore to you, i was fasting and i was mad.

after i did abit of complaining, then she got us our table :D
i know.. nydiah leceh!

honestly? the food tasted exactly like fnc.
only afew difference :(

we didnt get to make a wish on our 2nd anniversary so we headed to ben&jerry's to have our desserts!

the red candle was our 1st year's. and i used it for our 2nd.

I couldn't resist the rootbeer float! but it wasnt as nice as pizza hut's.

we were bloated i tell you!
we walked and walked and entertain ourselves while heading to cineleisure.
it was nice actually :) then found out no good movies to watch.
so we jalan again to ion. so overall, what we did was walk, he smoked, jalan2, sit and talk... alot.

i was trying to prove people that my nose is visible. boohoo to you nydiah!

im in love with my shoes but they gave me blisters :(

haziq had to put plasters at my feet to make me feel better.

i've nvr in my life sleep in the train before
but last night, i was sleeping soundly.

thought of rebonding tonight.
entah ehhhhhhh! maybe i'll rebond 1 week before raya! :DD

you're fine.

2010-08-09T14:52:00.004+08:00

we got to spent the last few hours together on our 2nd :)
i thought of picking him up from work.
but he insisted to come over.

he was catching his breathe the moment i opened the door.
he smiled and hugged to wish us.
then he took out our love book :))
after 6 months of not updating, finally..

the face not necessary ehhh. hahahah.
i blushed.

then he told me that he bought something i needed.
seriously? i didnt have any clue.

then he told me that he bought something i missed.

AWWWWWWWWW.... it's been awhile since i received roses.
i asked why blue? he told me that pink roses very common -.-
very unique.

THEN he told me that he bought something i wanted.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i was super speechless and i couldnt stop smiling :))
awwwwwww.... im deeply touched. awww.... i love you lahh.
i swear i couldnt stop smiling.

he told me that a heavy load is slightly lifted off his shoulders.
slightly? he still have to plan for my bday! :DDDDDDDDD

fasting month is coming and i seriously need to lost weight.
discipline ehh nydiahh!
ok, i decided to work tonight! i want my shopping money.
cant wait to find baju raye with haziq.
confirm mamat tu stress! hahahahahaha.

tuesday, dinner with sisters.
wednesday, with family :))
will be rebonding my hair soon. haziq will be accompanying :))
aper lagik, kemas the house and maybe painting my room.
shopping @ geylang uhh.
ohya! manhattan fish with uchuk!!!!

"don't compare your life to somebody else cos u don't know just what they're going through,

she walk a mile in her shoes.

don't be blind, the sun shines, on everybody here."

2nd year we stayed with each other.

2010-08-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

it was totally random.
nana called and told me that she cancelled her plans on the last minute.
and asked whether im free. :))
she owed me cheesecake anyway!
me and haziq got our chesecakes!
the cheesecake session was alittle delayed for ahile due to my just-woke-up boyfran and
me and nana waited for 2 hours for him to come -_____-
hahahaha.

it was totally random but i liked it.

i've given it a thought.
thought of hanging this lanyard for awhile and take a break to settle things out.

andd......

yes, Happy 2nd anniversary haziq :))
omg! we're still holding on strong and i love you for that.
you're only one who could put up with all my drama series and i love you for that.
you're the only one i think of the moment i wake up every morning and i love you for that. :)
you're been very very patient with me and i truly love you for that too.
you're the only one in my heart and my feelings towards you stays the same.
you showered me with all the love you could give and all the food you could feed me!

you've put up with my weird weird cravings and my weird weird behaviour.
eventhough we couldnt spend the whole day together.
but in our hearts, we know that today IS special.

lets put the past behind us and look forward for more great moments together.
the past is not important anymore. nobody could hurt you no more.
remember only the memories.
it's just about me and you now.
i hope to stay with you to celebrate more anniversary together.

see you later ok.
ohya! i asked haziq for his honest opinion!

nydiah : uchuk, honestly eh, should i rebond?

haziq: yes, you hair kembang like singe!

nydiah: 0_0 Woahhh~ that was like so straight forward~

i didnt realised lehh!!Yeah! im rebonding and maybe add alittle highlights!

but please dont tell me that everything is ok, cos i know its not.

2010-08-06T21:12:00.004+08:00

i know.. its been awhile since i update.
well, i dont find anyting interesting to tell anyway.
i've been down nowadays, eventhough i look like im having the time of my life,
but wth, i dont wish for anybody to understand.

wanna know exactly how i feel? i cant tell all.
but here goes.. Zzz..

i'm tired of trying. im tired of thinking that everything is ok.
that's my problem, i put others first.
i dont think about myself.
whenever i think about myself...
is when im alone. my mind will wonderr.. about everything.

no, there's nothing wrong with me and haziq.
and he's been very very very patient with me.

maybe it's me.
my frans said that maybe i'm just tired and i need some rest.
but what i need is, help.

i've spoke to someone about my problems but i dont feel better at all.
i appreciate that they listened. and i thank you so much for that.
maybe i do need help.
or maybe, i just need to talk.
talk to someone i wish to speak to badly.

please. i wanna let out everything.

she left me.

2010-07-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

i've had the roughest day at work tonight.
someone just left me there dying.
yah, it was my fault for shouting at her.
and i really did apologise.
but she shouldnt have left.

i hated tonight.
one minute we were laughing and jumping around.
and the other minute, i was shouting and throwing tantrums.

this sunday is someone's special day and i thought i had all planned out.
and there's last minute changes. stressed? yes i am.
haishh.

sentosa with sisters and the 2 fishy boys.

i thought mummy joining us:(
but she had to work.

i thought i've had my break from work already.

but now, after coming back, im hoping to take a break from work AGAIN.
i'm very tired, im very pissed, stressed up.
i need to sleep.

please please people, do me a favour.
dont make me more angrier.

i love you bobby and anjali.

2010-07-19T23:33:00.003+08:00

"I woke up with him at my side. with hope in his eyes"

got to finally watch new moon just now.
i'm so in love with edward but i couldnt resist jacob's body.
dont worry, im still on edward's team:))
i find vampire's sexy!

after that went to buy stuff for tmr.
sentosa baybehh!
i enjoyed my time with love today and i'm starting to miss him already.

to bobby and anjali,
i didnt think that just now was the last time i could see both of you.
i didnt get to actually see anjali but i got to hear her cutest voice.
and for bobby, i was avoiding him due to my flu and
didnt get to actually hug him goodbye.
OMG, I DIDNT EXPECT THIS AT ALL.

:((((

im not a machine.

2010-07-16T00:14:00.003+08:00

hehehehe :) was very busy with the verification thingy.
both my brain and body cannot function already.
have work tmr so i really need to recharge!
it was ok lahh.

they were supposed to clean the glass panel and i made kimmy wear teck's glasses.
hahahah :))))

lea was like "macho teck, show your muscles(mussels)...."

we need to study for all of the cakes and memorise :((
i cannot process anymore information.
she was super confident with the cakes!

and while kimmy was busying studying, i was busy eating!!

teck also stresss!!! cannot remember all of the cakesss horr!

i enjoy work cos there's kimmy, teck, lea and (must i say this?) chai. hehehehe.
eventhough she id irritating. but i like her.

i need to sleep now, recharge!!!

closer.

2010-07-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

today didnt work out well for me.
maybe becos im still recovering.
but that was not the point. im just not smiling and laughing as much as usual.
cant wait to see kimmy tmr. and i'll try my very best not to screw up ok.
i'll try to be on time.

kimmy called and told me the great news.
the trainer's interview was abit upsetting for me.
maybe becos after the interview, i thought that i could do abit better.
and was blaming myself for screwing up.
but i passed. i'm gonna be a trainer.

i know.. it's not much to celebrate.
but i've actually achieved something :)
im actually abit proud of myself.
hehehehe. cant wait to see the email.

thank you fishies for all of your support.
i love you mannns!!

ok, im still waiting for haziq's msg then i'll tuck myself in.
dont want to be late tmr. muacks people.

biceps triceps.

2010-07-13T17:10:00.004+08:00

its been awhile since we met.
super miss them.
already got to meet up with them and we are totally not sure of what to do
or where to go.
booked a room @ cineleisure and watched tooth fairy.
yup, abit old but it was hilarious!

coffee @ coffee bean after that.
i was sick and i totally looked messy :((

this guy joined us abit late but dayah was laterrrrr!!

cant wait for our driving session.
but havent confirm yet.
super random. i like.

im still sick and i have so many things to do :((
how sad. boohoo nydiah.
chiao!

ohya! spain won and haziq just jumped for joy (infront of my mum)
hahahahhahahahha.

mr and ms foster.

2010-07-09T21:49:00.003+08:00

i'm spending most of my time working now.
i'm always late and i am not proud of that.
i went for the "interview" yesterday.
totally felt like i screwed up.
i wish i could do alittle better.
but now, let's pray.

outdated pictures.
it was kimmy's bday.
as usual, i was late for work,
i ran to buy her a bday balloon and ran up to start work.
im glad she liked it.
i miss her.

we did the fishy bday rap and i was leading, for the first time.
sweet kan akuuu.

i hope the results are in now.
and i miss banana foster.
didnt know haziq liked it too.
:) mr and ms foster.

pecan and strawberry cake.

2010-06-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

helo helo :)
firstly i would like to wish my little sister a very happy bday.
today was a special day for her. lucky habiss.
went out early with kakddee and abang to find her the suitable present,
then off we went to 313 for dinner.
we girls, no, i mean ladies, cant resist from cuci-ing mate,
we had to dropby, F21, Cotton On, New Look etc.
the sales are crazy now!!!!! Cepat lahh gajiiiiiiiii!!!

mcm biase jgak, haziq had to work, so cannot join in the fun :((
we met up after dinner.

ok, my workplace will be renovated soon, and i will be work elsewhere for the time being.
kalau aku bilang blog nanti kecoh plakkan, since some people already know where i'm working at.
takper, only for afew weeks only, then back to the usual place.
dont miss me ok.

i actually want to work near to haziq's workplace, tapi takot mcm rimaskan plak.
i dont want to be too clingy you know.
sorry i dont want to be a control queen ok.

the Singapore Sale is on!
pay come, I ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

ohya haziq, when is our chendol session??????????????

i miss spending 24 hours together.

busy busy with work only... haiyoooo.

beautiful

2010-06-24T12:16:00.002+08:00

I appreciate beautiful girls, doesn't mean i'm turning into a lesbian.
I'm just proud of them for taking good care of themselves.

haziq promised to meet me today,
since he spent the WHOLE ENTIRE day in front of his XBOX.
:DDDDyou so owe me milkshake!!!!

i wanna be you.

2010-06-20T01:31:00.001+08:00

:)

see you tmr ok love?
good luck for your kenduri tmr.
wear smart-smart wokay!
for me? fishy meeting early in the morning :(
i guess kimmy will be picking me up again like usual.
still wondering how can people wake up like 5-6am in the morning.
urggghhhhh.

and last night, a customer asked me what was my favourite cake.
i recommended banana foster (my lover pie).
he agreed to order one and in the end, he did not liked it :((((((
How can anyone not like banana foster pie?! can i kill youuuuuuuuu!

i am madly in love :D
with still the same person.
my silly silly silly boy.

kitty cat kiss the rat.

2010-06-16T15:29:00.003+08:00

i heard the story from my sisters
about a cat stealing fish from a restaurant and got caught.
the cruel thing is that the fcking person chopped off both of the front legs.
i pity the poor kitty.
but when i watched the video, i couldn't control my tears.
omg, how could people do this.

pearlie pearl and bear-bear,
eventhough we LOVE to bully, disturb, squeeze, trick, fool, threaten you with the hair dryer, laugh at you both,
we still love you with all our hearts ok?
you kitties complete the family.

i'm being a very sweet girlfran again :)
picking uchuk up from work later.
thought of having dinner @ al-azhar.
im craving for the roti naan and the milo milkshake lahh.
nanti psycho uhh :)

for the mean time, i want to hunt for my kitties!~

i put my tooth under my pillow hoping to see the tooth fairy.

2010-06-11T15:12:00.005+08:00

yup, i've done it. i had my wisdom tooth removed.
i was super nervous and scared.
the surgeon briefed me about what will he be doing, what is expected,
what i should and shouldn't do.
that's good enough :)) he's a good doctor.

he told me not to talk too much for these 2 days. important.
WHAT WAS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN??! I TALK TOO MUCH MEHH?

I ASKED TOO MANY QUESTIONS MEHH?!

and he told me to drink alot of water.
and becos of that, i keep on going to the toilet~
i couldnt eat/drink anything hot and ONLY soft food.
I already miss GOOD FOOD.
i suddenly feel like eating paddlepop ice-cream. HAZIQQQQQQQQQQQ....
he came to pay his bogeh girlfran alittle visit before he went to work.
gave me enough hugs and kisses to last for the day, and off he flew to work.
texted him up that night.

nydiah: you eating what??

haziq: Canadian pizza~ 2 4 1, jett! Canadian pizza~ 2 4 1, jett!

nydiah: Hahahahahaha... GOOD FOOD!!!! i miss GOOD FOOD...........!

haziq: tak sampai satu hari chuk..........................

nydiah: THAT"S THE PROBLEM!! KILL ME PLEASE!!

hehhehehehehehe.

afew days ago, before i became bogeh,
he brought me to the place where we used to go, under the moon, near the calm water.

"Dont be afraid ok? I'm here." he said :))
haiiiiiiii...... i love you haziqah :D

meeting him up later after his beauty sleep!

cepat bangon lahhhhhhhh!

grizzly bear.

2010-06-08T11:05:00.003+08:00

i was all excited to see haziq last night.

but he was all grumpy and moody.

as gumpy as a grizzly bear!

had dinner and they always serve different colored plates.

he always gave me the colors i wanted.

i wanted the blue plate instead he gave me the pale pink one!!!!!

erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i kill youuuuuu!

-____-

i wanted to eat cheesecake :((

i didnt get to eat it.

as you all know, i was hyper yesterday.

he was tired maybe.

but i thought he said he was strong?!

we were ok~ after that.

as usual, we were like kids, buying kids stuff and played mcm takde besok.

it was ok lahh.

i want to do something different today!

haziq faster wake up!!

happy 1 year and afew months my lover :))

i woke up happy today. not tired :)

2010-06-07T12:52:00.003+08:00

the sun is shining on me today :)
i feel so so so so much better.
i feel hyper!
cant wait for haziq's message.

later he will follow me wherever i want to go, buy whatever i want to eat!
hahaha. baik2 dapat rest, kene teman aku plak!

at work, returning from the ladies,
i passed by a couple eating chendol with 2 spoons.
then they sit next to each other
then... then... they feed feed each other.

i called haziq.

" haziq: hello?

nydiah: uchuk, i want to eat chendol with you! buy one chendol with 2 spoons.

haziq: HUHH?? *muke confirm blurr!

nydiah:i saw one couple eating chendol, feeding each other, so sweet.. When will it be our turn?!!

haziq: Hahahahahahahahahahahah! later you finsh up all the chendol. must buy 2!

nydiah: -______- "

by the way, i dont eat chendol.
hahahahahahaha.

i cannot escape from the house chores.
so i better finish up before haziq msg me! :DDDDD

feel me.

2010-06-06T22:20:00.003+08:00

ok. let's talk about what else? my life :)
hhahahaha. i've been very very sick nowadays.
After my swollen eyes, my stomach created problem.
then after afew days later, my wisdom tooth got worse.
i couldnt even eat properly you know. ni kalau dah baik ni,
i'll eat a whole elephant i tell youuuuu! mesti kene cap Halal!
the pain is still present dont worry and i'm suffering from flu and cough too.
combo set abisss..

i cant wait to remove my stupid wisdom tooth which will be this thursday i hope.
haziq got me a number from a dental center to call to enquire. and i've surveyed afew too.
in total for my surgery is $800++
broke? OF COURSE! no shopping cash already! stupid tooth.

ohya! have i told you that i will pulling out 2 tooth. not one horr!
power kannn! ni lah nasib malang aku.
and my mum blames me for allll of the cokes/chocolates/junk food etc.
my mum seriously needs to take up a hobby or something.
she tend to know about Everything.
and very particular too. about what we eat, about what we wear etc.
the dentist said that my tooth is VVVVery near to my nerves so my taste bud will be abit effected.
takpe, asalkan boleh makan sudah!
wish me good luck people! yucky porridge and bolong tooth, here i come.

i'm very lucky to have haziq with me.
cos i complain/box/bully/cry/smack/pull/stretch/lean/kick/hug/hit/scold etc to him.
and he's still very caring and sweet towards me. chey.. blushing blushing.

he still havent had any Off day since last week and still came to meet me up.
haisshhhh. kecian die tu, kene layan orang mcm aku ni, kalaulah aku boss die,
boleh aku kasi die Off satu bulan! iyelahtuu nydiahh. dah start dah merepek kauu.

i've taken afew days off to rest.
i need them and haziq needs his too.
wahhh... like long time i havent express my love like that horr.
come to think of think, i always say haziq sweet lahh,
i love haziq lahh, haziq's the best lahh..at almost all of my post but I DONT CARE!
you meluat, then dont read! heheheheh!

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
- If you're not the one by Daniel Beddingfield
(i miss singing this at work so loudly with Lea and Kimmy :D)

ambek kau! kasi meluat lagik sikit :DD

reminiscing

2010-06-02T13:49:00.002+08:00

Was cleaning up all those unwanted pictures.

I'm really starting to miss all those old days.
haisshh..

i miss hanging out with those girls.
whereby we'll just go wherever our feet takes us.
and just talk and talk about well, everything single things in life.
we used to have sleepovers and i miss that terribly.

i miss hanging out with thy bitches :((

i miss the way fishies used to be.
when we're actually enjoying ourselves while working.
now, there's always something to be mad about :((

and those good food too.

i miss staying at home and do nothing but bully these 2 tails.
they would just run away while i chase after them with all my might!

then ofcourse i miss the old nydiahaziq.
so free. with each other like 2puluh4jam.
just make ourselves occupied with everything.

haziq misses bam-bam. where are you boy?

but one thing good is that he's still the same old haziq i knew like 1 year plus ago :)
abit more sweeter. and im touched. really touched.
ive never been happier. silly silly boy :))

ohya. to all you good nail polish-es i kept til dusty.
sorry ok. im trying my best to use you but you all know right i got work.
so if i need you guys, just be there for me ok. :DD

work again later.

and trust me, i really dont have the mood already.

its all for the money now.

sorry kimmy if i spoilt your day.

i miss you girl.

dah baik lah tuu.

2010-06-01T00:22:00.003+08:00

ok. i had the worst drama session today.
luckily haziq was there to save me you know!
i was crying, sweating and groaning in pain and he sat beside me, holding my hand.
he brought me medicine and stayed till i fell asleep.
he was still there when i woke up :))
he borrowed me a book and asked me to read.
at first i tried so hard to understand, but after reading more of its contents,
naik shiok plak.

haziq is having a hard time with work.
super busy nowadays :((
and still have to layan this drama queen(me) lagik.
sweet kann. my hero. i love you lahhh.

so happy to get this! i so love shrek!

and yup, he got the ben and jerry's ice-cream also.
so both of us are happy!
:D

had dinner with him last night and saw a cute cat.
super gangsta looking but as cat lovers, we bought food.
ok haziq did. he bought food for almost any cat he's fond of.
i like him being a cat lover :) kinda sexy.
we named him undertaker! muke fierce!

haziq's lover.

pearlie pearl, please uhh. dont anyhow uhh!
i know where to find you, you know!

we got work tmr! busy busy!
chiao chin chiao!

try outs.

2010-05-29T23:45:00.004+08:00

i got the opportunity.
but i chose not to go for it.
please dont ask me why.
i dont want to answer.
im abit upset but i'll get over it.
as long as people around me are happy.
then i will be fine.

nabey.

2010-05-25T00:07:00.003+08:00

ive been wanting to say this from i dont know when.

"please uh. prangai jgn childish gile. nak bitch about me?
come on lahh, how old are you anyway? please uh, kalau tak boleh take it, jgn nak melebih-lebih uh. super fcuked up people. kalau tak suke ckp uh.

you just cant please everybody lah. and please stop trying. waste my fcuking time. what? nice to me, then behind my back talk shit and stuff. trick dah lame pakai lahh bodoh. wasting your time also what. aku nak layan kau pon mcm dah malas.

and another thing, dont think like you're one kind of fashionista lahh. you're just one idiotic typical guy/girl. what? i'm no fashionista? OF COURSE i'm not! im very simple what! if you want to be a true fashionista, potong kaki bodoh kau tu. alaaa... pakai tu je almost everyday, fashionista lah sgt. please uh, brag about how much a fashionista you are. seluar tu kat mane2 boleh beli. baju kat c.o.a.x pon boleh dapat lah.

please lahh. just get your freaking face out of my sight. muke bodoh."

nydiah.

im having moodswings now. so, yahhh.

nydiah anak mak ehh.

2010-05-20T23:54:00.003+08:00

i've had a long week.
busywoman you know. :)
trust me, i'm too busy sampai spending much lesser time with haziq.
when im at work, i'll tend to miss everybody.
then when already infront them, i'll be like "ok lorr."

but i'll mostly miss mum.
nak bilang orang yg aku rindu makk, nanti kene ejek plak.
kalau simpan dalam hati nanti mcm nak nangis.
inside my heart "nakkkkk mummmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyy...."
anak mak btol. hahaha. serious.

yesterday betol punye emo si minah nii..
i was like complaining then haziq kept on Reminding me how irritating i was.
Hello! i thought you immune already? still must tell me mehh.
die pon same! Dua Kali Lima Dol Btol.

i'm doing something new tmr and super nervous i tell you.
nydiah learning kitchen lahhh. main masak-masak!
hope i wont poison all the food/sauces there.
hahahaha. then later at night, i'll be working with these girls.
rindu habis.

plan-plan nak tngk shrek same-same. since my boyfran dont watch!
watch with the fishies lorr.
but i also dunno how they plan.
yesterday was the longest day at work i tell youuuuuuuuu!
super slow~ man.
was trying to keep myself busy then tngk jam, MAK AIII baru pukol 8pm.
!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*(*!@#$%^&*(!@*()($#@@#$%^&*(. mengamok skejap.

nak ckp rindu haziq, dah biase ckp kan kat blog.
simpan je dalam hati sampai explode.
wish me luck bebeh for tmr.
Chiao Chin Chiao!

bday diva.

2010-05-13T23:01:00.004+08:00

mummy's bday :D
i woke up with a terrible headache. kecoh gile.
i really couldnt do anything. baring mcm ikan belot btol!
since i wanted to make my surprise plan work, i dragged myself,
got ready and went out to buy mum's bday cake.

couldnt take it. i was super dizzy.
while walking back home (with mummy's cake), i heard a voice.

voice: kak-elaaa.........

in my mind : jgn lahh mummyyy.....

MUMMY: KAK-ELAAAAAAAA.... :D

ME: ALLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.. spoil lahh!

plan spoil gile!
mummy caught me red handed with her bday cake.
-____-
this happned twice you know.
when me and sis were little girls, we saved money to buy mummy a mother's day cake.
then while running home, she caught us red handed also!
:D

after the celebration, i went to take a nap for awhile.
then off to dinner.

after dinner we had nothing to do (since the bday diva went to bed early),

we did nothing but took photos! :DD

too bad haziq couldnt join us due to work.

nvm, next big sis bday. make sure you take off uhhh.

i dont hear. i listen.

2010-05-13T01:29:00.005+08:00

Finally! somebody uploaded pictures already! :D so happy sia.
im starting to miss Thy bitches again. Walao! When want to meet again??
I've been away from work for nearly a week. planning to Mummy's bday.
stress i tell you! i hope everything goes smoothly and please girls, No Fights! :D
confirm bringing Camera. i want to capture as much memories as possible.

movie night with the boys.
yeay, i got bullied :))
Ironman 2 what superb! eventhough our seats were super last warning!

i Choose not to bring up the lunch incident!
super paisey you know! i thought that i was the only one who saw ...... .___.
but the haziq go and said loudly. walaoooo. hehehehehe.

again?? :D

i hope mummy will love what ive planned for her.
i love you mum :))
pictures of mummy's bday soon :D

his haircut :)

2010-05-10T13:05:00.002+08:00

watched soccer last night till 1am.
me and haziq randomly took his shirts and fold it around our heads. NINJAS!
Hahahahaha! I had Lots of fun!
We stayed up late till 3am and our idea was, since soccer end late, i'll just take the cab home.
But he ended up walking me home (1 hour journey) :)
I did most of the talking. and surprisingly,
he listened to all of my nonsense (when i'm tired, i tend to talk nonsense)
very sweet of him.
ya, i do miss the old days.
but I am as happy as before. with haziq around :)
i love you lahhh. how? :D

will be meeting up with haziq later tonight.

for dinner and finally... his Haircut!

Finallyyyyyyyy! cant wait!

mummy's bday coming! so stress!

stronger than yesterday!

2010-05-08T17:25:00.006+08:00

i'm abit hyper today.
cloud nine people :D
i also dunno why.
finally i get to spend alittle more time with haziq.
and am having lots of fun!

watched Ip Man 2 last night! Power!
but not as Shiok as Iron Man 2! tak boleh challenge.
maybe becos i'm not totally into Chinese martial arts.
but Ip Man was impressive :)

haziq working now and i want to feeling-feeling sweet lagik
and will be picking him up from work.
Dgr-dgr he wants to eat nasi lemak boonlay lagi.
but im not sure, since he's abit tired.

Mother's Day is tmr and honestly, my otak totally blank.
mum's bday is coming soon too. stress nydiah.
ape nak buatkan die ehh.

kinda of miss work now.

miss laughing with those girls :)

wheels is updating me about they are doing and stuff

and that makes me miss them more.

see you guys at work ok?

love you people.

last night, i dreamt that i was a little girl in school. and...

" Teacher: Nydiah, what do you want to be when you grow up?

Nydiah: A ninja :) "

CHEY! hahahahahahah! nak turon gi kedai pon tak larat, nak jadi ninja konon!

hahahahaha! but i really do find them cool.

ok, i want to get ready already!

amk hub maybe?

2010-05-05T00:35:00.003+08:00

im starting to lose interest already.
i maybe changing outlets. see how lorr.
im tired of reminding, tired of scolding.etc.
as you all know, im very impatient.
so whatever things they did wrong, i'll scold.:)
haziq waited for me to finish work.
and thank god im soooooo glad to see him.

spent my night shift with kimmy. i miss her.
im uploading the pictures. lambatnye!

:D

working with kimmy also tmr. i hope nobody will make my blood boil uh!
if not, i'll kill you. EACH of everyone of you!
i miss haziq already lehh! how?

super randommz

2010-05-01T01:02:00.004+08:00

i'm soooo loving my lace leggings! :D
cant wait for Ironman 2!

had a loooooooooooooooooooooooong day and i want to touch up my nails.
thanks chukk, for picking me up from work!!
see you ok.
i know i dont say this often but i'm happy being with you :)
cheydebah!

goodnight people.

you funny i also funny.

2010-04-29T14:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday was really a FUNNY day.
Haziq was stuck at the bus-stop for i dont know how long! due to the heavy rain.
i was in a occupied bus (on the way to the bus-stop he was at.)
standing beside the bus driver.
and he can still smile2 and looked at me!
i was like "WAVE! wave for the bus to stop!"
Hahahahaha! after that he can still missed the next bus.
:DDDDDD super laughing i tell you!

AND i have my reasons why i dont like playing games with haziq! :DD
once upon a time.. not long long ago.. yesterday also..
played co-op game. Splinter Cell i think.

i'm like the kanchiong spider one, so i'll just shoot anyhow.
follow my luck lorr. if the enermy die, i happy.
if not, i will continue shooting. even when i'm reloading. hahaha!

Haziq (Player 1): -___- Can shoot properly ornot!

After trying to shoot properly..

Haziq (Player 1): -____-" uchuk, you dont shoot! just follow me only lah!

Nydiah (Player 2): Ok! I follow!
(Still continue to play cos I'm confident my player looked much Hotter than haziq's.)

After following, he got caught and nearly lost.

Haziq: Uchuk Help Lahh!!!!

So i ran to help! But still, we died. -_______-"

he gave me the (imsogonnakillyou) look. and i said

"I shoot, you asked me not to shoot, just follow. then i follow, you ask me to help! I DONT WANT TO PLAY"

i miss him lehh :)

dinner with him later and i bought him the mints he wanted.

the only place you can find the mints is at south africa yahh!

not NTUC, Prime, Fairprice, Minimarts or Shop N Save etc!

1kg somemore! makan puas2 and reduce smoking ok! heheheheh!

Ah Des? That's the name.

2010-04-27T23:12:00.004+08:00

i dont care whether he's gonna read this or shit.
please lahh. very fucked up with you.
how stupid can you be uh. stupid idiot siak.
even 5 years old kid much smarter than you.
fcuked up lah babi.

grow up lah. Perfectionist? Come on lahh. I've been cleaning your shit!
think before you talk can? This is why i HATE people who thinks they are soooo good.
you want to know why? becos they cant see whatever is around them. BLIND i tell you!

ANGRY??! of course im angry.
i dont want to hear your stupid excuses and apologies.
becos you're just one bloody asshole.
and you want to be frans??! Wait long long uhhh!
i dont even know why they even hire you!ERGH!
you think you can handle everything? even the GIRLS work 3 times faster than you.
sucker.

ONCE A SUCKER, ALWAYS A SUCKER.
MOTHERFUCKING ANGRY SIAKK!
LAME SHIT LAH YOUUU! GO AND DIE!

I MEAN IT.

________________________________________________________________________________

At last, i get to breathe. after a long day of screaming :)
ok, i need to stop spending already.
tmr? work again? need to save up my voice for more screaming tmr!
haziq owe me Yakult Original Flavor :DD
2 days didnt get to see him. meet me lahhhhhhhhhh!
goodnight people.

speak good english.

2010-04-25T18:01:00.004+08:00

3 china guys dine-in and wanted to sit at a dirty table.
i quickly ran and stopped them.

" Me: Sir, can you give me a moment, i'll set this table for you.

One of the China man: Errrrrrr... Speak-ahhh... engrissh-ah(english)?

(My heart was saying "THEN?! IM SPEAKING TAMIL TO YOU MEHH???!")

Me: Give............ Me........A......Moment,..........I.......Set......This....Table......Ok?

China Man: Engrish-ahh, engrissh-ahh?

Me: I am speaking in english. *i left them to sit and took the menu for them."

HEART PAIN i tell you!
its my Offday today and im super happy resting at home.
but its getting kinda of boring cos i'm all alone with these 2 ekor(s).
i feel like eating @ Al-Azhar for dinner. entah ehh.
and i suddenly have a crazing for frozen oranges - yup. frozen.
AND yakult :((((

i miss my silly boy:)

watched Man U Vs Totteaegjsmmmmm, (i dont know how to spell. hehehe.)
haziq was super stressed with the game and im coloring.
i really super random uhh!

my masterpiece! :DD hahahaha! super happy to complete it!

haziq faster finish up your game:(
super bored lehh.

i need a whole lot of starbucks.

2010-04-23T00:58:00.004+08:00

"I want starbuckss and i soooo love orange!"

im tired lehh. wasnt that busy, but i feel sooo shagged.
maybe becos i went home late the night before.
didnt get to go shopping today :((

planning to go USS next month and i cant wait.
one of my wants list!
haziq came to pick me up from work just now :)
and he's totally in love with his Baby (his iTouch. with new games) (-_-")
im getting lesser and lesser rest/sleep lehh,
its clearly stated on my face how im always tired.
i need to take a break AGAIN.
i dont want to get any eyebags and dark eye circle lehhhhhhhh! Nvr!
working again tmr and i cant wait to see kimmy and shu yi.
want to take pictures with them! :DD

ohya! i need to reduce the chocolates and the soft drinks. i'm gaining weight already.
and can see you know. Grrrr.

2010-04-22T01:36:00.004+08:00

hey hey!
my blog and facebook freaking dusty sia. it's been awhile since i logged in :D
enjoying life mahh.

work was ok. i did lose my temper and kept on shouting at DD(his nickname.) infront of the customers. i continued screaming at him in the kitchen and i swear i wanted to get out of there. but kononnye nak professional kann, i continued with my work. he did apologised at the end(a million times. -____-")

met up with bitches again and this time, dorothy was there too :DD
after we doing abit of shopping @ 313, we went to Lau Pasat for dinner.
i swore i brainwashed dayah to buy a top @ F21 and she brainwashed me to buy leggings!
haidar's camera suddenly went crazy so we didnt take many pictures.

kite kann, kalau satu hari tak gado tak sahh. asyik gadoooo je :D

at the end of the day, we were REALLY tired. but i had fun:DD
see you guys again ok. misses.
went to swensens with uchuk the next day and i wasnt pleased with almost everything.
except for the food lahh kann. hahahaha. went over to uchuk's place to watch soccer.
and i tell you, MAN U score like 20 secs before the game ended. COOL.

On Monday, me and my girl power family went to ikea to do abit of shopping for our house.
kakddee dah mcm kat heaven gitu kann! and im like superrrrr tiredd. cos mummy woke me up like dammnnnn early and i literally have to drag myself out of bed.

i had so much fun these past few days. there's always things to do.
ohya! atlast, i got to taste the Boonlay's Nasi Lemak Power. Powerr i tell you!
lepas makan, i really cannot carry my perot anymore, so the boys dropped me off at my place and went off to lepak lahh tu. i cannot join the fun becos i have work in the morning :(( goodnight people. i miss you.

PS: ohya! haziq finally got his Itouch (2nd girlfran named Baby) and he's with this Baby like 24hrs! grrr... kecian girlfran number 1 dier. hahahaha.
i can see he's happy. takpelah girlfran number 1. saba je iyeee.

next stop! Universal Studios Singapore! i want to go!

2010-04-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

today was supposed to be nydiahaziq's off day,
but chuks got plans with his buddies to go to Sentosa's Universal Studios Singapore!
lagikpon he deserve a break from me once in a while kann :D
all i did today was, getting all the rest i deserve.
since i was working full shift when i was totally sick.
on saturday, @ around 1am, he cameby to see me for awhile, bought me a cooling drink and strepsils. awwwwwwwwwwww.

while uchuk got to enjoy his day screaming his heart out,
i was enjoying our new sofa that finally came today! i totally likee!
mcm suke sgt gitu. i love the smell of new furnitures in the house! hahahaha.

haziq still cameby to see me after that.
i can tell that he's shagged but he couldnt stop talking about what he did there.
jealous? OF COURSE. i wantttt to go!
he did bought me a souvenior home for me.

-_-" atleast he didnt forget about me with all the fun he was having :)) aww..

these past few days was somehow my best.
im starting to understand it all.
and i truly believe that i dont have to think too much.
cos the more i think, the more stressed up i will get.

i can say that im abit of a bitch sometimes and he learned something from me too.
i am an irritating person. and he learnt to be twice as irritating as me.

thats why nowadays, yes, we do have fights and everything,
but there wasnt a moment where we have to stop and think of what to talk about.
we talked about mostly everything, about our day since we are both very busy with work and spending lesser time with each other,
but that will make us miss each other more correct?

before saying goodbye, he hugged and told me how much he missed me,
and truly, i missed him too.

tmr we got work again and i hope to see him.

Ohya! read "Dear John" alreadyy.. happening!
cant wait to see thy bitches this friday! YEAY!!!!

Chiao Chin Chiao! God of War (PS 3 game, im obsessed)! here i come!

life is wonderful.

2010-04-04T17:54:00.003+08:00

im tired.
(lazy to talk malay lah people. must think you knoww.)
work gets harder and harder each day, you give your all, they want more.
then some assholes just doesnt want to listen. really.
i dont want to say who lahh. nanti die bace blog aku, lagik satu problem kann.

after work, i walked to the station listening to Life is Wonderful by Jason Mraz, then muke stoink lagiikk.. dah mcm dlm movie boring pasal life orang sey.
nydiah syaqilah binte superman seriously no life sia.

Man U kalah ehh! stop it sia.. haziq was super upset i tell you. hahaha.
i dont know why, but i feel like we're spending lesser and lesser time together.
tu lahh. busy ngan keje. mamat tu with his NS somemore.
tak sempat nak dating2.

i wanted to buy a top online, and i already sent them an email. but until now you know, they havent reply to me. walaooooo! i want the top. super vogue.
boleh buat pesta muda mudi nanti :DD

ok, i need to get ready to meet the boys.
i want to shoppppppp :((

ambil kau.

2010-04-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

Hari ini saya bercadang untuk berbahasa melayu.

(kerana kakak saya sudah speaking kan. saya pun turut sekaki lah.)

Lagipun sukar sekali saya berbahas dalam bahasa ibundaku di lelaman web saya ini.

Hari ini amat menyakitkan hati yg tersungguh lemah.(alahai)

Saya dipaksa ke kedai bersama kakak saya dan bayangkan lah, mahu beli berus pinggan mangkuk, dia boleh berfikir seribu kali fikir.

Sanggup dari Shop N Save (Membeli Dan Berjimat),

kite jalan ke Prime untuk membeli ikan tuna-nya.

Dalam perjalanan ke Shop N Save (Membeli Dan Berjimat),

kami melalui taman permainan kanak-kanak.

Kami (Ape lagik) ambil kesempatan untuk bermain buai-buainya.

Waduhhnya.... buai-buainya sungguh berkarat sekali.

Bunyinya yg dashyat itu menyakiti dengungan lubang telinga kami.

Selepas kami selesai membeli belah, saya masih tidak dapat menunaikan permintaan saya,

iaitu membeli air batu kisar berperisa coklat (chocolate ice blend ehh).

Saya bercadang dengan kakak untuk membuat air itu di rumah dengan menguna batu lesung kami, kerana mesin blend kami sudah dibuat untuk mengisar bawang-bawang dan rempah. (takde spare blender).

Selepas mencacatkan apa yang saya mahu UPDATE dalam lelaman web saya, saya akan sering berbahasa melayu kerana saya sedar bahawa darah yang mengalir di dalam tubuh saya ini adalah darah belacan. Whakakakakak!

Kalau ada silap ataupun salah, ia tidak ada kena mengena dengan hidup ataupun mati.

Harap Maklum. Amin.

no answers :)

2010-03-28T18:42:00.000+08:00

i buy, i dont make.

2010-03-28T14:21:00.003+08:00

i know its a weird color, but im sooo loving it! :DD PA-RAP-PAP-PA-PA!!

ok, im stuck at home with who-else, my elderly sister.

i want to eat ice lychee. buying for mum and sis too.

waiting for her to return home from work lah nii.

nanti belikan, complain, manis lahh, sejuk lahh..nanti nak bende lain. IYERR! hehehehe.

haziq had to work today. abit upset cos we had to see each other like 3-4hours only last night, after so long.

we're spending lesser and lesser time together lehh :((

Ziq, i wanna watch "How to train a dragon".... puhleasssse!

kakddee got nothing better to do than just nag and nag! Zzzzz.

Still cannot believe right?

2010-03-27T01:51:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of feeling so thrashy all the time.
Lucky there's kimmy and shu yi :) love them man!
I really enjoyed work on thursday but just now... I swear we all lagi sikit want to give up you know.
I'm trying to be the ironhead here and doesn't want to give in.
But I did. And maybe it's for the better right?takkan nak menang aje kan.

After serving for a couple of years right. I've learn that first impression tells everything about the person.
Some Chinese are sooo nice that the more smiles they give you, the more you want to serve them.

But I've encounter some Chinese customers who thinks they are sooooo pretty and sooooo good that they can just praise themselvess anytime.
Like what the fuck lahh. Think you so good uh. Nobody is perfect okk.cb.
Please people, I'm not only talking about Chinese people ok. They can be more nicer than malay people.
I got kena before, a Malay family, sombong nak mampos. What! Eat there then you like one big fuck like that ugh! Knn!
But come to think of it, hungry what. So have to layan lahh. Customer is always right katekan..

I wanna go to bed now. Hopefully I will get to see him after afew days. Pray for me people. Muacks.

prangai fcuked up.

2010-03-24T14:50:00.006+08:00

i dont always want to post all my negative feelings here in my blog.

but im a drama mama and you guys should expect all this from me ok.

haish.

im sooo.. hating today ok.

i hate when im having flu.

i hate it when when my throat hurts.

i hate waking up in the morning feeling like shit.

if you're asking me whether im happy now, my answer will definitely be No.

Why? becos im tired. tired of always being unsure.

and if you want to know, im hating myself too.

for being so fucking ridiculous all the time.

sometimes its sunny and sometimes it rains :(

ohya, ade bdk2 merepek ni kan, dah lah bdk2 local,

nak step feeling feeling bebual maner nye bdk2 american gitu.

jgn merepek lah ehh. please uhh. nampak sgt ahbeng kia. CB.

urgh

2010-03-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

ok, im abit upset today. no need to explain why lah kann.
i'll be returning back to work in thursday and friday. ergh.
so i kinda have to enjoy my time off now. now? totally not enjoying it.
like you people care like that horr.

while doing the chores, we sisters have the habit of switching on our music super loud.
so like got mood to work you know.
while the song buttons by PCD ft Snoop, i did it again.
i took out all of big sis's rings and necklace, took out my bangles, abg's hat etc.
and imitate!

im not feeling feeling pussycat dolls ok! tak setaraf lah nydiah!

NYDIAH FEELING SNOOP DOG! HAHAHAHAHAH!

we couldnt stop laughing. and trust me, i love the sister bonding moments.

i really wanted to repaint my toe nails. but i dropped my pink nail polish :((
so no pink nails for me! hurrrrrr!

dont fcuking cough.

2010-03-23T00:28:00.003+08:00

nydiah: hey, i love you ok? i dont expect you to say it back. i just love you:) *hug hug.
haziq: =)

after afew seconds later..

nydiah: 8/
haziq: hahahahahahah! i love you too!

he knows how irritating his girlfran is ;D

met him up for a late dinner(havent supper yet ok.)

then he sent me home. nydiah happy!! bloated already!

i couldnt stop coughing until im too tired to breathe and my throat seriously hurt.

blame it on the weather horr! irritating.

we're sooo.. going to swensens tmr and i cant taste anything :(

confirm tak enjoy.

ok, achik wants to sleep :))

i was totally losing it.

2010-03-21T15:57:00.007+08:00

had a blast with the boys last friday night @ phuture sey.

i was always wishing that dayah could be there :(

haziq was always pulling me here and there.

control babe control!

went to the ladies to freshen up and a girl came up to me and dance. hugged me. thenn..

girl : i came here without any make up at all.

me : i wore leggings.

girl & me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

party like a rockstar! ;D

reached the interchange @ around 7am.

cool.

had a fishy meeting at 8am in the morning,

i was coughing the entire night and i didnt get a peaceful sleep.

luckily haziq woke me up by sending 3 txt msges and 3 missed calls :D

sweet lahhhh. *blushh.

then later, meeting up with him again forr..

Manchester United Versus Liverpool!!!! WOOOHOOO!!

( no motive in typing it in full sentences :DD )

see you later :DD

"sometimes when you want something so muchh, but you know you couldnt have it, you'll tend to want it more"

forgive me.

2010-03-17T00:48:00.004+08:00

ok, let me get this off my chest again.
i wont be telling you every detail but,
i just want to share more or less about myself.

i am a very clumsy person, that is why im always having scars all over my body.
love used to think that its adorable... you know, whenever i trip and fall,
we'll just laugh about it.

but most of the time, im always screwing up.
im mad... mad about being so clumsy.
becos of this, i can make people really pissed off at me.
and i'll tend to hate myself for being so fucking clumsy.
it is my fault and i truly blame myself.
of all people, why must it be me?!

but remember, this is who i am.
so love it when you have the chance.

yesterday.

2010-03-16T14:27:00.006+08:00

after lunch.

i brought my camera everywhere but didnt even take it out.
so he took the opportunity to take snapshots.

then i took mine :)

DEFINE CLUMSINESS

–adjective,-si·er, -si·est.
1. awkward in movement or action; without skill or grace:
She is very clumsy and is always breaking things.

you drive me crazy.

2010-03-15T01:14:00.005+08:00

I SWEAR IM TIRED I TELL YOU.
WORK LIKE FULL TIMER SIA.
IF YOU ALL SEE MY TIPS RIGHT? CONFIRM LAUGH!

super tired lahh. im spending lesser time with haziq lehh :(
again, he came to pick me up from work yesterday.
i can tell he was shagged. after we reached my place, he took a seat and randomly Zzzz..
i felt somehow guilty lahh you know, like he's tired from work then still send me home.
sorry chuks :( thank you for the burger too!

since im always at work, might as well enjoy my time there right,
now, everybody in fish n co thinks that im very irritating already. everywhere can see my face!
sometimes its good to let loose, no worries. Happy lah bitchh!

hahaha. ok, better get some rest.
ps: im still in uniform.urgh.

look at yourself first before acting like a bitch.

2010-03-11T00:48:00.005+08:00

ok, let me tell you guys this, my blog suck to the core.
i'm always at work je! mcm seriously, takde life siak aku nii.
i'll be at work the whole day.
and at the end of the day, i'll be super shagged. its always like that lorr.

kalau keje kat fnb line ni kan, you'll get to meet with different kinds of people.
Some are super bitchy but their appearance seriously super last warning.
i mean, come on lahh, nak bitchy pon, kalau jambu gile atleast ok pe.
and please ehh, im not saying that im jambu ehh.
totally ridiculous lahh if i think that im soo good kann.
im just a typical human being ok.

Some can super nice, that even if you make abit of mistake, like salah order ke,
they'll just accept it you know, they understand maybe.
But when it comes to fcking irritating customers, for example, they can scold you even if you send the wrong drinks or something, part tu aku seriously malas nak layan. prangai kalah president.

some customers can even smell quite bad. you will try to avoid taking their orders
becos if you have to, you'll have to endure the few minutes of agony! but whoever our customers are, we treat them with respect. cos we're happy that they're happy. Correct or not. and that is when we enjoy work.

if you expect respect from us, then you'll have to respect us too correct or not?
then we can go the extra mile to provide you good service :)

PLUS, during my break, im glad that i bought a pair of earrings for myself :D

i super liked it. Shu yi bought herself a necklace :)
wish Kimmy was there with us! more fun mann!
nydiah better stop spending before haziq starts killing you :)
need to sleep already. work again.

No time for love.

2010-03-10T01:29:00.003+08:00

My heart don't belong at fnc already. Maybe becos the people there.
I mean I love the people, but I just feel like there are people I just can't relate to.
I'm working later today and seriously, I just don't have the mood to.
Maybe becos kimmy won't be working today:(

me and haziq are always busy with work and it's even harder for us to meet up.
But we're trying our best to spend as much time with each other.
He loved the watch I bought for him and I really feel like it's worth it.
I can still recall his reaction when I gave the package to him.

Haziq is with haidar now. Lepak-ing. And I should be sleeping by now.
The lappy is having abit of problem lately due to Internet connections.
So I had to update my blog using the iPhone:D

can't wait to party! And seriously, I feel like killing Dayah dibee kite ni! Pasrah giler sey nydiah.
Ok, better get to sleep now. Goodnight people. I love you man!

new watch.

2010-03-09T03:08:00.001+08:00

"Everyday when i look at the time, i'll always think of you"

i hope you'll do the same too. :) i love you.

-nydiahaziq.

thank you for always being on time.

i hate being bored becos its boring being bored and i dont like being boring cos boring is boring.

2010-03-04T14:22:00.006+08:00

I WANT TO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Haziq was supposed to spend time with me and he had to go work.

!~@#$%^&*()_#$%^&*(@$%^&*@$%^&*(!@#$%^&*(@#!@#^&*()#*(#%^&@$%^&*%^&.

he did came to pick me up from work. then im like

"WHY THE HELL IS HE IN UNIFORM?!?! TIDAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK...." sedih gile seriously.

I wanted to smash all the chairs there i tell you.

i was super unhappy and complaining ALL the way home.

after he went off to work * nydiah rolling her eyes Everywhere i tell you.

i was super bored that i took snapshots of everything!

(i put exclaimation mark not becos i happy urh.)

this one i nvr lock her uh! she locked herself up in her cage. i dont abuse my cats ok.

HAPPY LAH SEYYYYYYYYYY.

ini saya punya favouritadest bangles in the whole wide WORRLD.

my first sister is sexiest than me. yea go girl. =_____________________=

im boreddddd.... haziq havent msg meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

love is blind people!

2010-03-03T00:40:00.003+08:00

ok, let me tell you how irritating my boyfran is ok.

this was last year's hari raya photo.

this is when we went to marina barrage.

and this is the bowling picture that time.

irritating rightttt :DD
always spoil my photo! hahahah!
i didnt get to see him cos we're working at different timings.
so sadddddddddd lahhhhhhhhh plak minah niiiiiiii!
but takpe, i'll get to see him after work tmr! :DD suke suke!
im soooo freaaking tired cos ive been working non-stop.
and seriously my mouth cannot shut up already.
haziq had to layan me till the minute he left me at my place.
thennn peace and quiet for him :D kecian haziq.. love love love love loveeeeeeeee...

but after a longg day of work, its nice to see him appear at my workplace to wait for me to finish up.

sweet of you love.
some more buy for me chewy doughnut. mcm maner your girlfran tak gemok! hahaha!
thanks uchuk, for ALWAYS being there for me. (eventhough sometimes i complain and complain and complain some more.)

sometimes, i really wonder how can haziq tahan with me horr? :D
you're irritating and that makes me love you more.

love me? romantic comedy.

2010-03-01T01:51:00.003+08:00

i know i know... my previous picture really really last warning.

hahaha. kakddee shot that! hello! i slept for like 2-3hrs je!

you expect me to look like beyonce knowles isit?! hahahaha.

im not feeling very good lately.

very very very tired, and im abit stressed up actually.

but everything's fine.

im having work later. double :((

hope to see haziq after work.

i wanna watch Dear John with uchuk but he dont want. Walaooo!

guys dread watching love stories in movies i know. but teman lahh.

tak romantic lerr. :)

the look of this picure je i feel like im on cloud nine.

i have a copy on my diary! :D

Me: Chuk.... Why you love me?

Haziq: I love you cos you're belo and bonchet.

=_________________="

well, there's no reason to love right?

i dont need his reason, as long as he loves me with all his heart,

that's enough for me.

2010-02-27T19:49:00.002+08:00

I'm a trainwreck in the morning,
I'm a bitch in the afternoon.
Every now and then i can be really mean towards you.

i dont know why you love me.
and thats why i love you
you catch me when i fall.
accept me flaws and all.

i like the bartender.

2010-02-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

ok, im always at work now.

and i seriously cant wait for the coming plans.

was stuck at the bar the WHOLE day.

wasnt planning on meeting haziq up till saturday/sunday

but he appeared to pick me up from work..

aww.. since he's super tired. he got to enjoy the chocolate cake i bought for him.

instead of sending me off till my MRT station only, he walked out of the train behind me.

he sent me directly to my doorstep.

trust me, he was superr tired i tell you.

atleast i managed to make him smile and laugh alittle before he go :)

im still missing him lahh. if only you could read this :)

very very sweet of you.

ok, have to prepare for work again later in the morning.

GIRLPOWER BAYBEH!

stand up nydiah.

2010-02-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

trust me, i was mad these days.
i let my emotions take over me.
kakddee came knocking at my head(not physically lahh! -_- )
asking me to see what ive actually done to myself.
i couldnt control my emotions and burst into tears.

then my little saviour came along. he was hurt to see me like that.
but he still stayed with me.
i know that ive caused nothing but trouble, and i wasnt sure what i was doing too.
now i have to bear the consequences.
great job nydiah.

i didnt know what i was doing till you came to the rescue.

im recovering now. but im easier to get hurt.
haziq too have to bear with me. and i hope he do have patience.
i dont wanna lose him becos of my mistakes.

FINALLY! F.I kiter dah upload gambar.
and thank you so much for tagging the ugliest butt cramping photo of me at my fb!-__-

we cycled from cck to kranji. hafiz lagik rabak. hahaha.

his butt really cramp uh!

Bowling Fun

2010-02-23T01:00:00.005+08:00

wahh.. atlast somebody uploaded the pictures already!
nak tunggu gambar2 cycling kite mcm forever21 gitu ehh!
hahahah! yelah2 F.I kiter busy giler!
these are the bowling pictures :D

HIDDEN TALENTS BUTT VIEWS.

see... he's always bullying me :)

that's my macdonalds

our lunch at al azhar and trust me i was freaakinnngg hungry.

i painted my toe nails baby pink and still not sure about the color. hehehehe.

LEFT4DEAD. english POWER.

random giler. but it was FUN.
i strike-d once and haziq named me BONCH =____="

i had work yesterday, it was ok lahh. not that busy but... maybe after so many days of relaxing,
it felt abit draggy when it comes to work. woke up late and took a cab to work.
like seriously wasted siaaaa..
had a long talk with my colleagues and its been awhile since we had a couple of laughters.
the same people from morning till night. was stuck with lea and shu yi (silly silly girl:D)

i told you she's silly.

meeting haziq up tmr morning. can wait to see him :DDDDDDDD
mcm forever gitu tak jumpe. ok prangai nydiah stop it one miliion times ok.

haziq is missed terribly.

2010-02-21T20:30:00.004+08:00

" I dress to impress you. No one else."

i cant wait to partyyyyyyy. :DD hug hug people! spread the love.

ok, i need shoes and i need a new top! no, no i want a dress this time.

its been awhile since there's any surprises. i cant wait for that moment.

to see you shocked and happy, then to see you falling in love with me again and again.

i love you haziq :D much more than you could imagine.

sometimes, you are used to having him around too much,
and when he's not, it just doesnt feel right.

text me up ok? hugs and kisses.

i told you to leave.

2010-02-21T00:29:00.007+08:00

the whole week was like a longggg holiday for me.

i felt like i can do whatever i want.

but it's coming to an end, and i have to get back to work.

soooo looking forward to working with Kimmy.

nydiahaziq, haidar, hafiz and dayah went to play bowling @ 12pm yesterday (since it's 2+am already)

the night before that, me, haidar and haziq stayed up superr late, talking, about everything.

i reached home at around 3am and had to wake up early the next morning.

after bowling, we went to bukit timah for lunch and randomly went to play Left4Dead2.

gerek!hahaha.

i wasnt feeling well that time and trust me,

these past few days were my moodswings-giler-nye-mood days.

so im always angry, sulking, complaining and giving faces.

i thought haidar didnt bring along his camera, so i brought mine.

ended up he did. so i didnt use mine at all.

ok abitttt only. haidar, aku nak gambar! :D

i did truly miss her. i know.. my face all like last warning gile kann.
wasnt feeling so good.

went over haziq's place to watch MAN U VS Everton.

and MAN U, WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU GUYS DOING???

hahaha. love wasnt pleased with their performance and like always, im the extra extra one :D

before coming over, we went to the mall to buy stuff.

and im super happy that i got myself a new diary.

i know.. skg kan dah mcm cyber world gitu, so blogs are normally diaries to people.
but i still prefer writing (the old fashion way).
i feel like by writing down, i can express my true feelings without anybody knowing.
soo old fashion kan nydiah. hahaha.

to my darling chuks,

thank you for being veryyyy patient with me due to my terrible terrible mood swings. i love you ok? like how beyonce love jay z.ok ok takde link! i know your girlfran irritating gile. so i better stop before i continue my nonsense. muackisses.

goognight people.

ok, i have to start learning how to save.

2010-02-18T19:16:00.006+08:00

ok, let me get this off my chest first.

!@#$%^&)!@#$%^&!@#$%^&*)@#$%^&*#$%^&*@#$%^&

done. i dont have any reason for that. maybe cos im bored at home.

haziq have to go back to work already.

and here i am, at home, doing... well probably nothing.

i can see that bear-bear is recovering soon. phew~

he's starting to be his irritating self again. but still abit weak.

i tell you guys this also, like you care like that horr. hahahahahaha.

well, i should probably get back to work too.

will do.

i wanted so much to buy a dress online which cost from 21 to 16 bucks!

but i already bought a top this month. haiyoooo!

last month nye top pon, i wear only once. lepastu nak beli lagik and again. HURGGGGHHH!

come to think it, like its only 16 bucks right?

then haziq will give me this =_____________= face again how?

i wanted so much to go to 313 nye forever21, it's HUGE. heaven!

but that time was chinese new year, all of the shops were closed. pfftt.

should focus on buying bangles! since im running out of them.

and im gonna drag haziq along! bangles irritate him. he thinks they are noisy.

hahahaha! :P

i bought this neeki shirt and worn them ONCE to meet thy bitches.

then something spilled on it like seriously, and now, after scrubbing and washing it, the stain is still there! URGHHHHHH!

im soooooo buying a new top.

haziq is working tonight. i miss him.

big sis is with me from morning till night. irritating you know :D

we were fighting for the lappy and i won!

she's soo bored now that she fell in a deeeeep sleep. hahahahah!

ok, i want to chat with CTKHUZ now.

written with love.

2010-02-17T13:20:00.007+08:00

"after so long, i've learnt not expect anything else. but be thankful instead for have you in my life" - nydiahaziq

met up with haziq and haidar yesterday.
they wanted to play pool before dinner, so have to wait abit longer for my milkshake.
i didnt know that haziq can play that well. what i saw yesterday, MCM PRO! hahaha!.
kembang lahh sikit nydiah nii.
kecian haidar! hahahahaha.

FINALLY, i did get to taste the sweet milo + whipped cream milshake!
wuiiiiii heaven giler. was craving for mee rebus for i dont know how longg
(dont ask me why mee rebus, i also dunno :D)
after dinner, went over around my area to chill.
brought along my pokercards and pearl too.
seriously beratt.
i had fun eventhough its a random meet-up.
:D

im rather worried about bear-bear.
2-3 days ago, his left eyes was all red and swollen, now his right eye plak.
haishh. he's always asleep and he's rather warm.
if this continues, we have to bring him to the vet.

random posts of my cats growing up.

BEAR-BEAR BEFORE

AFTER

Hahahahahahahah!

PEARL BEFORE

PEARL AFTER

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

dulu kecik2 cute kann. dah besar, ambek kauuu! hahahahahahah!

ok ok! the nicer pictures lah.

gotta give them credits for letting us lepaskan geramm at them. hahah!

Bear-Bear Get well soon ok. kak-ela loves you.

2010-02-16T15:08:00.002+08:00

woahh. i was super engrossed watching her I am... Sasha Fierce Unplugged.

it gave my chills just watching her sing and dance. POWER! :DD

met up with love and his parents for dinner last night.

we settled at my workplace to eat! it was funn!

eventhough i couldnt swallow anything else, my mouth was busy too, talking.

i had a greeeat time with them. thanks haziq :) i love you.

meeting him up later i think. bdk ni tak boleh dudok kat rumah.. hahahah! itchy butt!

:D see you.

mum and grandma went to malaysia that day so i didnt get to see any of them in the morning.

and bear2 is sick for the moment. suspected FLU. but his left eye is all reddish.

in 2-3days time blom baik, we have to bring him to the vet AGAIN. get well soon my handsome white cat.

since he's sick, we attacked(lepaskan geram!) pearl gemok instead :D

i miss dayah. i missed hearing her screams! hahaha!

kite jumpe ok. i love you babe.

to thy bitches: bile nak jumpe lagi! plan plan.

to zima: thanks! :D you and boyfran sweet gile! :DD very very cute couple! gerek sey dapat gi dating! :DD hint hint haziq lah konon! hahahaha! keep updating ok! i follow up!

to shasha: Aku miss kau and rambot kau yg irritating to the core tuu! :D tngk beyonce nye unplugged??

i dont really need your opinion.

2010-02-14T00:26:00.003+08:00

3 things you should know about me:

brightness, i always have a smile on my face;

loudness, you'll always hear my laughter and a script,

not everything is what it seems.

dead blog

2010-02-13T01:53:00.004+08:00

after work yesterday, i met up with haziq to buy afew things we needed.

i wanted to buy a pair of everlast shoe but didnt instead :(

haziq wanted to buy wallet, shoe and a top for himself but after walking THE WHOLE OF JP, we ended up buying nothing at all.

seriously, i was super stressed up finding almost all of his things.

cos bdk ni ader cerewet sikitt. tak.. tak.. cerewet gile.

i didnt expect finding guys stuff could be this hard.

lucky im a girl :D

haish. i can see that my blog is starting to die each day.

i tried my best to update as much as possible but maybe im just a boring person after all...

alaaaa saper kan nydiah niii... stakat mak bedah kepo gile jer....

hello atleast i edit2 ok.

ok, i better go to bed now.

if not, cannot wake later for work how?

kecian supervisor2 jp slalu kene bully ngan nydiah :DD

busy gile.

2010-02-11T01:28:00.008+08:00

im sooo tired todayyyyyy..
worked with FAU the whole day. had fun with her though! we went shopping on our break!
usually, afternoon would not be busy at all, but just now.. wahhhhhh. lucky got shu yi.

evening some more. URGH.
just now, a customer wanted a table for 3. i explained to her that there's no available sits indoors.
then she scold scold scold me and said that i dont know how to manage the guests sittings!
after i explained to her about EVERYTHING, then she only replied "OH."
WALAO! i worked there for 3 f-king years and you still can tell me that i dont know how to do my job! !@#$%^&*(

and some more, while standing at my station, i saw the girl who im always jealous about.
she was with her bf and i dont know who...
i told all my colleagues abt her and they're like "you jealous of her? HER?? her nydiah?? please lahh.. look at her."

i looked and her and said to myself "omg, seluar stop it giler babi ehhhh.. please. bf pon same. sajaklah tu dorgggg"
hehehe. work was hectic but fun.

i miss this irritating cat cos im at work the wholeee dayyy. so i only get to see him late at night!

just look at him. ohya! he's a cat already uhh. no more a kitten. HAHA! bear2 tak cute lagi! padan muke!

haziq always pick me up from work

2010-02-10T00:24:00.004+08:00

ok, im gonna let this off my chest first!
haziq i'm sooooo gonna kill you!
ok done. well, we do have the downs in our relationship. it's not always UP okkk.
and im super learning how to be abit more understanding.

after work, me, nydiah syaqilah binte batman, trying to be a very sweet girlfran,
quickly got ready to pick my darling ting tong ting tong from work.
i dont get to pick him up often due to always working duhhh.. but i was free yesterday.
abit tired, but i dont mind.
the last time i picked him up, i waited for him at the MRT station,
but yesterday he waited for me at his workplace. luckily i didnt get lost you know.
atleast i got to see all his frans, the ones we always talks about.

im supposed to send him home, but he sent me home instead. hehehe.
nydiah kau ni kan ade penakot nak mampos sikit.
we had our dinner at alep then he lepak-ed at my place for awhile.
we were talking talking talking and suddenly,
aidah came out of the room with a camera. ape lagik kite... ammmmbbboooooiiii..

nampak sgt ZOOM. -_-

aidah takottttttttt.

i'll be busy working fullshift later. so ade mls sikit.
and not meeting haziq either.
malassssssssssnyeeeeeeee.

can you feel me?

2010-02-05T14:20:00.003+08:00

"if there's no one, turn to the walls."
- you need to face the exact same situation of the person to understand him/her.

alarm clock.

2010-02-05T01:33:00.005+08:00

the more i think of work, the more i hate myself.
i used to LOVE work. i loved working with the fishies there.
but now, i just lost all mood to work.
haissh. sometimes,i really dont want to grow up.
i dont want to have responsibilities.
i want to have the time in the world to enjoy.
i know, i have to smack my fcking face back to reality.
haishh.

haziq had a pretty long week.
and he still have time to spend his supposed-to-rest time with me, which is very very SWEET.
i kept on asking him to rest but as always he NVR listens to me.
he needs to rest. somebody just knock some sense to my boyfran please.

and as for me, smack your butt off bed and get back to work LAH.

role supermodel

2010-02-03T01:26:00.001+08:00

you call it madness but i call it love.

it's not too much to ask whatt.

2010-02-01T17:57:00.003+08:00

I REALLY NEED TO TAKE MY SHOES OFF AND TAKE A BREAK FROM WORK.

random lah kononn

2010-01-31T16:18:00.002+08:00

haziq won the bet again.

and am meeting up with uchuk tonight to watch....

man u vs arsenal!

tak sabar nak smack that!

will have to prepare myself for tonight.

(man u jersey, bawak towel man u, water bottle man u, soccer pants and sport shoes. plus MAN U banner)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! iyerlahtu minahhhhhh!

you're the apple of my eyes everlast, unless i see a better shoe than you. then sorryy sikitt

2010-01-30T00:05:00.001+08:00

im tired of work already.
enough for me.
worked with kimmy today :) really miss her.
its been awhile since i saw her.
everything was soo havoc just now, half-way,
i feel like rolling down on the floor crying asking the customers to go away.
~ how i wish i can do that.
then the customers will be like "aww.. ok, we'll go somewhere else to eat"
-_____________-

will be working with her and haris again tmr :))
will be hell for us. somemore people get their pay tmr.
and after work, we have to attend this fishy meeting. haiyooooo!

ive set my eyes on these pair of everlast sneakers and am planning to buy them when i get my pay.
haziq also wants those shoes. we were arguing on who should buy a different shoe.
then im like "ehh! whats wrong with buying the same shoes uh??"

well in that case, I'M BUYING THE SHOE FIRST! (nydiah dont want to lose.)

i know haziq.... your girlfran irritating to the core.

deyy sleep lahhh.

2010-01-28T00:41:00.004+08:00

this is like the only day i got to stay at home and rest.
kakddee was with me the whole day.
it's nice, once in a while :)

there's some things i did and somethings i should/shouldnt be doing.
im enjoying my day at home here before i start working again ok!

i know that im forbidden to paint my nails due to work, but i couldnt help it! one finger onlyyyy....

uchuk bluetooth-ed me video phone to my phone. so mcm ade happy sikit.

i dont know why im soo obssessed with bangles. need to stop buying already.

have to stop kakddee from eating bear-bear up.

stop bullying this irritating to the core cat.

and i have to stop wasting paper and start learning how to save gaia.

uchuk gave me this super cute pen which i wanted like since he got it.
and now, i have 2 super cool pens to show off at work!
:D

sentosa lahhhhh

2010-01-27T14:51:00.003+08:00

went sentosa with them again :D
i wasnt in a good mood so im always sulking and complaining.
hehehehe.

i missed dayah to the core lahh! and was sooo happy to get to see her!
but haziq stole her away from me with all the SPF-talking-about-all-the-things-i-cannot-understand. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

had breakfast at KFC first. (i got to taste the seweettt rootbeer again)
then bought a few snacks for later that day.

ok part ni nydiah ade cair sikitt.

tngk bdk ni!

it was ok actually.
but the night was a disaster for me.

kite jumpe lagik ok. :D

YEAY!

please dont make me upset.

2010-01-25T23:56:00.005+08:00

im always at work these days.
and am always tired.
wasnt too busy just now (i think cos im in the bar the whole entire day!)
but today was okay.

everything is fine and we're still counting the days :)
was supperrr upset that i couldnt stop crying (cry-baby) the whole day yesterday.
im glad we had that talk.
i love you lahh.

i brought our lovebook to work yesterday, to make myself feel more worse.
and trust me, i do miss the old days.

i remembered he bought this book for us during valentine's day.

was browsing through the pages crying my heart out and found this.

im soo glad that everything's fine now.

i have this habit, a very bad one.
whenever im upset, i'll feel like spending on something, ANYTHING.
ive already bought a bag, top, a grey cardigan, bobby pins, comb, keychain etc.
woahh.. im always upset horr.
haziq pon dah biase gituu..
i wanted to buy another top today but resisted.
and guess what! i bought a monkey pen today and was super happy about it.

the monkey looked just like haziq whenever he gives me that im-so-proud smile.

found out that i wont be working tmr. and im so happy.
relaks uh nydiah.

regrets

2010-01-25T03:16:00.003+08:00

i love you too much
that it's difficult to make you happy and it's so much easier to hurt you.
i dont want to hurt you but i keep doing it.
i love you haziq. and that can never change. EVER.

shawty what your name is.

2010-01-22T02:37:00.004+08:00

" i was writing down something and was SUPERR blurr that i actually forgot how to spell my own name. "