trust issues.

i really dont know how to put this into words.
MIA-ing helps sometimes. not by cooling down or something.
but by thinking. i still feel the pain and i am furious.
but you dont have the right to decide for me.
i personally had enough of this.
i dont know what i did, to make you not trust me.
but i can feel that there's no trust at all.
i dont think i am holding on anymore.
i tried gaining your trust back and i tried to hold on.
but you are the one who made me feel like there's no point in trying at all.
you always thought that i dont know how to take care of myself.
now i am going to prove to everyone that i am capable to do that.
i will try to move on.

i dont want to spend the rest of my life with someone who orders me around.
who prevents me from doing what i want to do.
and who doesnt put alittle trust on me.
you never loved me at all. cos in love, there's trust.

the worst thing of all, i loved you for who you are, who you want to be
and who you will be. i was never in your way to do anything you wanted to do.
i was there all along, behind you.

i Will miss you terribly.
i will miss the times we had badly.
but i think it's time for you to be a Bigboy now.
and i think its time for us to be apart.
my love for you will never change but i dont see any reason to hold on anymore.
i tried.
please do me a favour, dont come and see me cos it will make me much more weaker.


until we meet again someday. with so much love.